What I’ve learned in the past few weeks is that adjusting to adulthood is hard. Realizing that having your friends around only happens once in a blue moon and understanding that people sometimes only like you because of the things you have (or don’t.) Knowing these things have, to put it lightly, been tearing me apart and I am still working through them but I have learned a valuable lesson. You can’t please them all! I used to try so hard to make people laugh and like me and realized now at the tender age of 20 that I can’t care. I will drive myself nuts trying to make others happy and I have so much other stuff to worry about than if people like me. I mean everyone enjoys being liked and I know that but I can’t worry about if everyone in my office likes me. I just need to go to work and get my paycheck so I can live my life and be happy with who I am. I’m still trying to get a hold of it all because it is a lot to adjust to when you’ve always had friends to fall back on and people that liked having you around. Now they are all busy with their own lives that its hard to catch you anymore. I pray that God will send me in the right direction because I’ve lost a lot of people lately and I’m not sure if it’s me or if it’s them. If it’s me then I don’t know if I can change myself to keep other people around or if I will just end up alone fighting for something that doesn’t even matter.
So I made a decision. One that has affected me in ways that I never could have ever foreseen. I Quit College. It’s a decision that I made because honestly not having a passion for what you’re going to school for is a sure sign you’ll hate your career. I loved working with kids and seeing how a school could actually be a place they felt comfortable at and really understood the content being taught to them. But it wasn’t for me. I am now constantly ridiculed for making a choice. “You’re not a terrible person” is what I have to keep telling myself and I shouldn’t have to and neither should anyone else going through this. Finding yourself is HARD! I keep thinking of mean things to say to people to prepare myself for what they say and have a clap back if its negative. I made this choice because I don’t want to have pressure to be something for other people and honestly if those people want to be in my life they should support me through the tough decisions (good or bad.) I have to find out for myself where I am headed. No one knows who they are at eighteen and apparently they don’t know at twenty either. Hell, I know some older people that don’t know and for the people reading (or probably not reading) if you haven’t found your place… it’s okay. I’m here for you because although I don’t know my place either I know what it’s like when people criticize what you’re doing. My response to that is “I’m doing my best”
Hello, my name is Brittany DelSignore I am twenty years old and completely foreign to this whole blogging thing. Although I don’t know much about this sort of thing I thought I’d give it a shot because I’ve always had a passion for writing. I also have just bought a fixer-upper with my fiancé and have learned a lot from taking something old and worn out and making it something beautiful (but that is for another post.) My fiancé’s name is James and we are getting married in October. Wedding blogs have seriously saved my life while going through this process and I thought it was a neat idea. I want to be someone that helps people with tough decisions whether it be about a new home, college, or even planning a wedding. I am excited to start this new journey and experience something new.